Real Dream

So, I had another one of those dreams about my mom last night. You know- the ones that are *real*. For those who don't know, my mom passed away 2 1/2 years ago, from cancer. Since then, I am blessed have these *dreams* every once in a while that I hesitate to call dreams, only because they are so real- I think of them more as little meetings between my mom and I, that happen to take place while I am asleep. In these instances, I am not merely dreaming about my mom, rather, it's like she is really there, and I am there, and we are interacting. If you have never had an experience like this, it's so hard to explain without sounding like a crazy person, but you'll just have to take my word for it. (Note to self: I'm going to have to come up with a name for these.) Anyway, I've had a few of these since her passing, but I haven't had one in a while, and I have been feeling sad about that recently. Then lo and behold, I had one last night. This one was short: I was walking across a room and looked down the hall and saw her walking toward me. I stopped and did a double take, and then ran over to her and she gave me a hug that I can still feel. As we hugged I felt so thankful- I was so worried that she wouldn't be coming back to see me, but she let me know that she knew that's how I was feeling (she always knows), so she wanted to make sure I knew that she is still with me. I cried and cried. When I woke up (in the middle of the night) I had tears in my eyes. I tried not to think about it too much, and fell back asleep. When I woke up in the morning and remembered the dream, I cried again. These dreams make me so happy and so sad at the same time. They make me feel sad because it makes me miss her, a lot. But, they make me feel happy because I feel like I was able to share a few moments with my mom, and because it reinforces in me that she is still around me and knows what I'm thinking and feeling. She knows when I need a hug from her, and she still finds a way to give it to me. And I'm so, very grateful for that. So, that's my weather report for today- partially cloudy with a few scattered showers, but mostly sunny. :) Thanks, Mom!